DISCRIMINATION AND INEFFICIENCY...

Yesterday was my graduation ceremony and i feel sad to say that i din't enjoy it at all. it was a discriminating and highly inefficient event.

The event started half hour late ( yeah! i know its hyderabad n here everyone is always late. stilll .... it was irritating. probably the only thing i hate about hyderabad is how people can't every be on time.). they first gave away certificates to the top 10 rankers of each branch, that bit was very well organized and everything but as soon as the top 10 were done the chief guest left ( not  that i really cared about some guy who i don't even know but what the f***??? right??) anyway, these dignitaries left and then they turned the place into a fish market. the whole disciple was down the drain. and they din't even have enough graduation gowns for us.they had about 200 gowns for more than 700 student.. crazy right??? and my branch ( poor me) was the last one, so we got all the sweaty gowns and caps ( ewwwww )...

Inefficient, my college has always been but i have to say the amount of discrimination they showed was mind boggling. it was as tho if you are not in the top ten then you've done nothing in your four years and your just there to witness the graduation of those toppers. do these people realize that those topper too needed a people after them so that they would be important. these toppers were toppers because they came in the top 10 amongst 120 student not because they were the top 10 of 10 students... they need the remaining 110 students to make them important enough.. sheeshhh.. disgusted by college...

So yesterday i became an engineer and today was my first day at the job. joined Accenture ( as i have mentioned earlier) yes soo... Mr. Tiger Woods made the damn comapny very proud but for a US based MNC that has such good reviews from its employees, it created a bad impression on me on the first day.

When you think of a Multinational you expect some level of discipline and sense of time. but this turned out to be worse than college where they started only half hour late. Accenture beat them by starting one and half hour late. hehe.. yeahh/.. its an MNC..... neway they made us sing some random stuff and then finally they told us that we were free to go as soon as we got out employee id and before leaving we had to make a temp id and that my dear friends took up 1 hour .

So i feel sick with the amount of discrepancies and useless wasting of time that i've noticed int these past 2 days... hehe

okay not in a mood to write anymore... sleepppppyyy....zzzzzzzzzzzz.......... good night..............

p.s: will proof read tomorrow. bear with my bad typos and any typing error.....

 good night ...

DECISION....!!!

" YOU'VE ALREADY DECIDED ON ONE COMPANY AND I'M NOT TAKING A NAME BECAUSE YOU KNOW THE NAME, BUT YOU HAVE A SOFT CORNER FOR THE OTHER COMPANY AND THATS COMING AND DISTRACTING YOUR CHOICE. "

Those were the words that i thought made my decision clear but the truth is i was still very unclear about my choice because i was thinking that accenture was the company i thought i had a soft spot for. but as it turns out that wasn't the case. the company distracting me from my choice was infosys with its lure of a beautiful campus and the most important leaving town and becoming independent. 

Today, especially now that i've taken a final decision i feel light headed. my decision feels right.. the temptation of going to mysore still is there but i feel like my decision to stay is the right one. i feel like its smart for me not to run from my life to start a new one because that is what i was trying to do by joining infosys.

So all i want to say is i've made my choice and i've made the right choice this time.

i'm joining accenture on the 27th of july 2010. 

Good night..!!!

P.S. : as happy as i'm that i've made a choice, i'm also sad because i'm gonna miss D terribly. I remember all the plans or hanging out and going to bangalore on the weekend and all the crazy things we were suppose to do together.... :( i'l miss you D... love you...:)

SILENCE OR STAMPEDE...???

BLANK....

Yep.... my mind is absolutely blank.... well its absolutely blank atleast when is comes to what i should write about right now but otherwise i think there's a stampede going on in there( hence the headache, atleast thats half the reason, the other half being the fact that i'm down with fever and cough and cold... :(..yeahh i know what a bliss, ain't it???....)......

You know how it is when you're soo sure about something and then something else happens that shakes your world and all your beliefs and then your mind starts thinking about all that you believed in all this while and you start questioning yourself and your decisions and you confuse yourself soo much that you want to stop thinking about everything but by then your brain has gone into an auto pilot mode and you just can't seem to find the switch that will shift it back to the manual mode.

Well my mind is in that exact same zone right about now, but if you come and ask me what my whole confusion is about, i don't think i would have a valid answer. see, like right now i just din't know what to do so i opened this blogging window and decided to write whatever came to my head and at first nothing..... thats why the blank... but the truth is our mind or brain or whatever that thing up there is that makes us sensible (well, not every human is sensible , is he??) i'm going to rephrase myself here. that thing up there that biologically classifies us as homo sapiens is never blank, atleast not untill you die, i think ( i really don't know the whole after life thingy and i don't think i'm a believer of it, so the brain stops after death for me). yes, so as i was saying that thing up there, lets call it the thinker ( brain is the scientific term and mind is the psychological term , so i want my own term). the thinker starts working and thinking from the time of its conception in the fetus( hope i'm right) well scientific, a fetus inside the womb does show brain cell activity so i say the thinker has started its work. and it works through out our life just like the heart. but you see heart doesn't make us go crazy and give us splitting headaches.. well it does give us heart aches but these heart aches are also there only because the thinker tells us that we have a heart ache. ( okay a little inspiration from inception...:P)

Anyway i was saying that the thinker is a poor overworked laborer. and you know god , you should have made a switch off mode for it too i mean it also needs a holiday right. just like mine needs one right now. remember stampede in the head.. thoughts are fiercely jumping on top of each other and running so fast that they are crushing each other  and destroying themselves even before they are fully formed.

N suddenly the rushing thoughts are moving soo fast that i can't even catch one of them and it seems like its a silent world again. though obviously that's just my wishful thinking because the stampede is still on and it just gives the impression of blankness because i can't read or clearly pin point on any thought.

And that has led me to a weird realization...

When we say that i'm peaceful or i'm calm or that i'm not thinking anything the truth my dear friends is that our good old thinker is working at such a fast pace that its all zooming past us and that we assume to be a blank and thoughtless phase. Which in reality it is not.

And i will conclude ( Because A.D says that i always have a conclusion to my posts) by saying that if you've actually made any sense out of this particular entry then your thinker is working at a normal pace and your insane. (because the post doesn't make sense to me)...

:D

ADIOS..!!!!

DILEMMA..!!!

Yesterday morning i woke up and, like i do everyday, i switched on my laptop and checked my mail. it showed one new mail.it was from some "nithiya.b.g", i thought it was spam and i was just about to delete it when i saw the subject line. it read "WELCOME TO ACCENTURE  "

So i opened the mail wondering why they were mailing me now even though i had rejected their offer. the mail read

Hi Insiya,

We are pleased to inform you that your Onboarding has been allotted for the month of Jul and you are required to join the Accenture team on 27^th Jul 2010.

I will be helping you in your transition into Accenture and will also be your point of contact. Apart from interacting with you over mails in the coming weeks, you will also receive calls from us with regards to your joining formalities.

In this regard, we would like for you to confirm or provide us with the following information within 2 days of receiving this communication.

"

And i just sat there looking at the mail wondering what i was suppose to do now. i realized that i had never rejected their offer because what i assumed was a mailing mistake on their part was actually not a mistake but they had deliberately not given me a date then and were giving me the DOJ now.

So there i was siting in front of the laptop wondering which company to join, because Accenture is also a very good company. and it was giving me location as my home town. i know, i know i keep saying i don't want to stay in Hyderabad but see home is home. if i take up Accenture i can stay in my room and my life will remain the same. after siting for half hour, thinking i got up and told mom about it. at first she was delighted that i wasn't going anywhere but after a little while she came upto me and said " I THINK YOU SHOULD GO TO MYSORE ONLY, YOU'VE DECIDED ON THAT AND YOU SHOULDN'T CHANGE YOUR MIND."

Now that was a shocker because i was soo sure mom would force me to stay back. so now mom's pressure was out of the way and the decision was suppose to be all mine because i knew dad wouldn't influence my choice or pressurize me in any way. and there was my second shocker. my dad wanted me to stay and join Accenture. crazy right when you think you know exactly how your parents will react they do a 360 deg turn about. hmph...

Anyway, i went to every forum online, broke my head for hours and then i gave up and went shopping. okay, just to clarify here i din't go for shopping as a stress buster because its not a stress buster for me i don't like shopping , i went because i had to buy important stuff and it was a preplanned trip.

Now normally when i shop i think only about what i have to buy ad shut my mind off everything else but today instead of looking in the mirror and thinking of the clothes in the trial room i was thinking of the pros and cons of the two companies.

I came to a point when i wanted to switch off my mind and put it away on one of the shelves in the mall. but switching off the brain isn't remotely possible. :(

SO my point here is, is it good to have a choice when it gives us soo much pain. wouldn't it be better if i just had no choice??

I wouldn't have to rack my brains right?? I mean making a choice is easy but making a smart and intelligent choice is hard, very hard..:(

To help me, a friend of mine put it in a very simple way. he said

" IF YOU JOIN ACCENTURE IT MEANS HOME

AND IF YOU JOIN INFOSYS IT MEANS FREEDOM

 WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE?? "

And when someone puts it that way the decision is easy right??? at least at this age, all we want is freedom and the decision sounds simple but with freedom comes responsibilities.

Again i was in a fix. wondering if i was ready to take on the responsibility that came with freedom.

Am i??  i don't know. and i won't know till i actually take on the responsibility if i'm capable or not.right??

Slowly i was eliminating the reasons i had for joining Accenture and choosing it over Infosys. but my biggest reason was still there Accenture is a MNC and its an international name. Infosys is India based.

So today morning i called my uncle( mom's cousin), and since he has been in the IT industry for 10 years now, i asked for his advice. his advice was simple "GO FOR WHAT YOUR GUT TELLS YOU"

It sounds easy right?? but it isn't. so he started asking me for my reasons for changing my mind and he told this after listening to the whole thing

" YOU'VE ALREADY DECIDED ON ONE COMPANY AND I'M NOT TAKING A NAME BECAUSE YOU KNOW THE NAME, BUT YOU HAVE A SOFT CORNER FOR THE OTHER COMPANY AND THATS COMING AND DISTRACTING YOUR CHOICE. "

He said i don't need to help you girl, you've made your decision and now just act on it. and i hung up with my mind set. my dad came and asked me my decision and i said

" I HAVE DECIDED TO GO TO MYSORE FOR MY INFOSYS TRAINING"

And guess what happened then. my phone beeped. it was a message from R. it read

" BOTH R TECHNICALLY GOOD, ACCENTURE IS RATED SLIGHTLY HIGHER AND A FRIENDLIER PLACE, INFOSYS IS MORE STEADIER."

Aaaaannnnnnnnnndddddd the circle in my head began again. VICIOUS CIRCLE  i tell you. I mean you'd think that once i made a choice i would stick to it but god no. i just couldn't stick to it. AARRRRGGGHHH. at that point i felt like pulling the hair of my head, how do people make such choices. god i hated the whole situation. in my head i was shouting and then i remembered my uncle's words. and i thought to myself

" ENOUGH INSIYA, YOU'VE ALREADY DECIDED, DON'T START WORKING YOURSELF UP AGAIN."

But of course i was just preaching it not really practicing it. D came home and i told her what my uncle told me and her reaction was this

" YOU SOUND LIKE YOUR TALKING ABOUT A BOYFRIEND WITH ALL THE LIKING AND SOFT CORNERS HEHE"

Anyway that wasn't relevant just felt like adding it. so i made up my mind with INFOSYS and just to see if luck also wanted that for me i told D to make chits and as you have it i picked up the INFOSYS paper.. :D

So no more dilemma. I've decided. and once i'm done blogging i'm going to mail Accenture and let them know that i'm not accepting their offer. PHEW!!!

P.S. Its best not to have options. but even though i'm saying that now i'll always keep my options open in life at least with options its my decision and not a step i took because of not having another choice. okay i really hope the post makes some sense at least.. hehe...

MOTHER O MINE

So my dearest mother is out of town and i am delighted because hey no mom reads more freedom no one to ask me where i'm off too and when i'l be back ( not that there are any restrictions but still no permission needed). i wait for the time when my parents go out of town so i can do as my heart desires. but this time when mom left she gave me responsibilities. see i can take care of myself perfectly fine but taking care of the household, hmmmmm , now thats BIG. oh, if your wondering where my grandmom is , well she is off staying with my uncle for some days so that sucks. BIG TIME.

Anyway, mom left on a saturday, and that night we had a family dinner so no trouble.

And sunday, well just passed by.

Monday was okay too, i woke up at 6am made lunch for my bro and packed it and then once he left for college i slept again. woke up at 9 again and when for spanish. so yeah, monday was easy.

But tuesday, that was another thing altogether. I slept late on monday night, and by late i mean like 3 ish. and my alarm, well not that i blame it because i set it for 7am, which made me late to make lunch. so i started rushing. and i guess it was just my bad day because thats the day that i get a headache and stomachache..:(
so, i start making lunch. fortunately ( or thats what i thought then) my maid came early and i was just halfway through my lunch making. so she completed the task for me and i could go rest( or so i thought).

Bro left. and maid got to work  on the rest of the house. suddenly she comes to me and she says
"Aap soo re kya?" ( are you sleeping?)

i said "haan"( yes)

now a normal person would go away, but not my maid she started off

"daddy ko kal ki bhendi bahot pasand aayi. poora dabba khaali hogaya."( daddy liked y'days' ladyfinger curry a lot, he cleaned the enitre lunch box)

my sleepy reply "hmmmm"

my maid being a little on the chatty side went on about the lunch for sometime and i really have no clue what she was saying because all my replies were "hmmmm" and "haaaan".. and then she finally left at some point.And i thought now i can sleep ... PHEW! i put a pillow over my head for my headache and tried sleeping again.

But after what seemed by 5 mins to me( it might have been more), my maid is back and again she says

"AAP SOO RE KYA?"

"HAAN"

Again she doesn't just go away, instead

"YE ROTI KHARAAB HO GAYI HAI, OOB AAGAYI HAI, PHEK DU??" (this roti is spoilt, got fungus on it, should i throw it?)

i murmured a yes, now that should have been enough for her but obviously it wasn't because she went on

"AAP EK BAAR HAATH LAGAA KE DEKHO, POORI KHARAAB HOGAYI HAI" (just touch it once its all spoilt)

"PHEK DO" (throw it)

"POORI OOB AAGAYI HAI, AAP DEKHE LO" (its got fungus, u see)

i turned around looked at it and said "HAAN, KHARAAB HOGAYI, PHEK DO" (yes its spoilt, throw it)

Finally satisfied with my answer she left, and i sighed in relief but it was again a early reaction, because alas she was back, this time again she started with "AAP SOO RE KYA??"

GAWD i swear i hate those words, i mean whats the point of asking me if i'm sleeping if you don't plan to go away when i say yes???

Anyway, this time around it was asking about when my grandmom will return.thats when i decided there was only one thing to do, and that exactly what i did.

I woke up, got dressed and had my breakfast and then waited for her next questions to come. but see my fate, once i woke up she stopped all her questions.:(

So mom, i'm just gonna say hats off to you. to be able to bear this everyday is something i can't do. i can take care of myself bu taking care of other people everyday isn't something i'm ready to just yet. I'm not saying i'm not responsible because i did take care of the house in her absence. but it was a pain. and i love my mommy for doing that for us everyday. you just don't understand how hard it is until you do it urself.. hehe

SO IN MY CASE. IT'S A LESSON LEARNT AND EXPERIENCE GAINED...

Aannnnnddddd  i'm done here, so GOOD BYE.

P.S. :  After reading this entry D says

" UR MAID.... BOON or BANE???" 

D says i should write an entry specially dedicated to my maid...

hahaha.... just had to add it here... :P

SHOESSSSSS.....

I've always had a fascination for shoes.

As kids, most of us would pass by a toy story and get stuck in front of the display window because we saw some toy we loved, be it a barbie doll or a hot wheels car. i remember my younger brother, M, he would sit down on the floor and start crying if mom din't buy him the toy he liked. kids wailing and shrieking outside or inside a toy story is a common sight.

I had a fascination for barbies like most girls. i use to love the dresses and the accessories. but my mom tells me i was never the kid who cried for toys or stood stubbornly in front of the shop till i got my toy. i was the good kid...:D.. hehe

But i do remember the first time i was stubborn about something. it was in a fair. there were these black sandals with 2 and half inches of platform heels and a sunflower in the front. i remember seeing that shoe and telling mom i want those and the guy was quoting a price of 1000+ rs for them. I was just an 11 or 12 year old kid so mom said a flat no.. i went to dad, made a puppy dog sad face and told him i wanted those shoes, he also denied me and we went back home. but i wanted them at any cost. so it was then that i cried and the next day we returned to that stall and bought those shoes. MY FIRST PAIR.

Ahh... i have such fond memories of those sandals. hehehe. after that i got into the adolescent phase of life and  forgot all about shoes. i was too busy making friends and having fun then...:)

But about 1 year back i went out window shopping with N and D. let me tell you N is a Shoe-aholic too. we walked into the shoe store and started skimming through the stuff. and thats when i saw them. siting on the rack looking gorgeous. i could help myself . i tried them on. and what do you know suddenly all i could think of was those shoes. the trouble was my wallet was undergoing a period of drought then. but just like the black sandals from the fair, i had to own these snake skin wedges too...and a week later i had them.. my FIRST proper pair of sandals bought out of the obsessive need to own the shoe come what may.

And the rest as they say is history. hehehe... now i own 30 pairs of footwear and i plan to carry on buying for the rest of my life. i'm not obsessed with clothes or bags or perfumes, so as a girl i'm entitled to at least one obsession read SHOES...

I love the smell of new shoes... hmmmmm... mmmmm...mmmm....*day dreaming about shoes*, anyway that another story in itself. so i'l write another entry about that later. for now i'm done.

GOOD DAY PEEPS...!!!

P.S. : i don't believe in the superstition( Indian) about giving footwear as gifts, so people feel free to gift ME as many shoes as you like.. I'm open for it.. :) :)

IS HATE TOO BIG A WORD??

There i was siting my Spanish class and the instructor was teaching us verbs. Well, more specifically he was teaching us the verb 'GUSTAR' it means 'to like' and i asked him the word for 'hate' or the verb for 'to hate' and he gave me the word.

"ODIAR"

And then he said okay tell me one thing each of you hate. and i said

" Odio los perros."

meaning

"I hate dogs."

and he said are you sure you hate them??? or do you mean to say you dislike them?? because hate is a big word. its a very strong feeling. and i thought it over and said yes, your right and i made another sentence.

"Odio los mentirosos"

meaning

" I hate liars."

But then if you come to thing of it, hating liars is also a very strong emotion because hey after all we all have lied at some point of time in our lives haven't we??

Like remember the time you told your mom you had a stomach ache and so had to miss tuition or school. Or when you did bad in some exam and said oh i din't get my marks yet. all these small things even i've done so do i have the courage to accept the fact that i hate myself?? am i right in saying i hate liars.??? and then again am i right in using the word hate??? doesn't hate become a very very strong word???

Anyway after that class i went home and forgot all about it. but then an incident occurred with A. and i thought of writing a post about it and now when i finally got around to writing i could only think of one thing

"Gosh, i Hate people like H, who want to show their strength against someone who can't really stand against them."

And there i go again with the word hate. but this time i don't think i used the word wrongly. in this context i don't think the word HATE  is a big word. i'd say its a rather small word for the emotion i want to put across.

I believe a person who hits people weaker than them is a coward not some macho man. now comes the situation with A into picture. this H, a coward for me, hit A's drivers for no reason other than the fact that A's driver wouldn't and couldn't hit him back. Don't you think H is a worth every bit of the strong emotion, the word hate expresses?? I DO...!!

When you think about it, this a very small incident, because every single day a b@$t&#d like H, hits some weaker person. A husband hitting his wife, a father hitting his kid.( yes, i agree that parents have a right over us but i still cannot accept the fact that they have the right to beat us up to teach us anything), a goon hitting a person on the road.  i HATE each and every one of these sickos( for i couldn't find a better word). i mean they must be sick in the head to think that beating someone weaker is a sign of strength. i say if u really are strong go stand against someone stronger. that you can't do.

You can hit your wife, a person who loves you even after you treat her like a piece of shit and you call yourself a man?? get a life. and i say this for the majority of women and smart men, a man/ woman who hits some1 weaker doesn't deserve to live in a society. the person is a psychopath.

I mean do  you think a sane person would stab a pencil into his wife's hand so she would need to go to the doctor to get the pencil removed?? would a stable person hit their wife and child (who is trying to save the mother) with a baseball bat??

Of course not. only a mentally ill person would do so... people pity the victim but i think its time to stop pitying and start taking some action. stop standing in the crowd and being a spectator. if you are strong then fight the bully. if you see someone weaker than you being beaten down stand up for them, for who knows someday some one stronger might be beating you and your good deed might come back to you...

So i'm going to sign out by saying

" I HATE PEOPLE WHO ABUSE THE WEAK. AND FOR THEM HATE IS A SMALL WORD. I NEED A STRONGER EMOTION TO EXPRESS MY DISGUST TOWARDS THAT CATEGORY OF PEOPLE. "

Good night.

P.S. : And that is what i like about A, he stands up for the weak and he will never ever raise his hand against some1 weaker than him. :)

DEAF HEAVEN....!!!

Here is a book i've been trying to finish for months now.... the reason behind it isn't that the book is boring. but more like i found more interesting things to do with my time then read this book. see the book is about this lady, Saraswati who dies in library on a friday evening and since her body will not be found till monday morning when the library opens again, she takes on the character of a sutradhar (someone acting as the link between the lives of strangers and narrating their stories). When i read this, the book sounded very interesting and then it was one of the crossword recommended books too.. so i purchased the book.

The book was very interesting till its first 100 pages and then suddenly, the book had so many new characters. characters that just came from no where. the book kept me engrossed till it was following the lives of four women but by the end of the book it had spoken of atleast 10 women.

By the time i reached the 150 page i guess i was lost i had no clue where i was.. but i'm not one to leave a book half way through how ever bored i get and this book i had to finish because i wanted to understand what was special in the book to have made it into the crossword recommends. honestly, even after finishing the book i haven't figured it out. i just know that i wasted 300rs on a book that i din't even enjoy. there might be people out there who liked the book but i'm definitely not one of them.

Anyway, the reason for writing about this book was not to criticize the book. but actually to just give my views on something that the book mentions. well you can say that those are my favorite pages also in the book starting from 240 to 246. there isn't much in these pages except for just paragraphs of news reports from recent newspapers. and not one news was a happy one. it was all about robbery, bulling, rape, hijacks, riots,etc. it made me realize what an unsafe world we are living in.

The pages were shouting at me and telling me "see this is the true india/world", the rich get richer, and the bloody poor get poorer. the political party supporter and workers bully the general public for everything, money can buy everything even justice. the police, the so-called protectors and implementers of law and orders are f*****g  b@$*@#ds... they commit a crime every single day but they are supposedly the ones to protect us. they take advantage of the innocent and we are suppose to go to them for help. i think the best way to ensure law and order in india is by hanging each and every one of these losers ( police, politicians, influential people who use their power for wrong purposes, etc) by their B@**$..i don't even know if i'm making sense anymore. but i don't really care.

They say that the public has no right to say anything because we choose the damn politicians and ruling parties but what those people don't remember is that what is in the election manifest is a beautiful cake made of plastic... its just a show piece none of it edible. the day these f*@k%#$ start putting something real in front of the people is the day when voting for an election is going to be of use to india. otherwise we are a democracy in the name only, but nothing is really democratic about us.

We say India is all about unity in diversity, i say my foot it is. its a very good motto.. but like hell its true. if this is unity in diversity then i dread to think of what would happen if we really had no unity.

I just remembered something interesting from the book. it has given a very good idea of when civilization ended. it says that happened when people began to think life as only about the 4 Zs.... namely

Zar - material effects including zevar(jewelery)

Zoru - women/wife

Zameen - land

Zor - force

I believe that the reason India is dying is because even though there are 4 Zs. the emphasis is only on one i.e. on ZOR. the more u have the more you become respectable.even if your a rapist or a cold blooded murderer. a person without Zor in todays India is like an open target anything can happen to him anywhere and no one cares. he can go to the police all he wants but they will help the one who has zor and gives them zar. and in this case its not just the police, its every single person. a roadside hawker will answer the person from a big car before he tends to a person on a scooter. a sales person will not bother with you if you don't look influential, etc.

Its a crazy place. all this just teaches you that your living in a world where only one thing matters

 "power"

and

"money = power"

because today your powerful if you have something to offer the person in front of you that he or she doesn't have in turn leading to corruption.Aaaaarrrrgggggghhhhh.... all this just makes me more angry.

Anyway i'm done for now. will come back again when i can start making sense of what i'm writing...

GOOD NIGHT...

P.S. my favorite quote from the book

"If a penis alone could aid ascendancy, women the world over would strap one on during work hours"

 P.g. 253, Deaf Heaven.

"Terrorism takes birth because of the profound failure of politicians, in material and philosophical terms, to fulfill their most fundamental obligations to people who elected them" 

P.g. 229, Deaf Heaven 

Oh... and the book gives the perfect definition of a RIOT. it says the riots are a sick expression of regional honour and nationalism, where a list of names and addresses are handed out to the retaliators with the permission to do whatever they want to do for vengeance. I believe this to be terrorism but then again riot is a form of terrorism too...

IS ANYTHING PERMANENT??

There are times when people say a lot of things, use big words, promise big things, but at the end of it all its all just words and more words. how do you know if those people will actually do the things that they say???

I've heard people say that nothing can be taken for granted, that nobody sticks to their word. people say that once something has been committed to paper it becomes permanent. but is that really true?? can't the paper get misplaced?? cant the paper be thrown away??can't it be torn to pieces?? can't it get soggy and the ink washed away??

I've heard people say that once you sign a legal paper, a bond paper you are bound by your word. but thats not really true is it?? marriage certificate is signed on bond paper in front of witness and yet divorces happen. people sell and buy property by exchange of these papers and yet frauds happen. so how is this permanent??

How do I believe people who make promises when nothing is permanent or reliable??

I remember the phrase " SET IN STONE"... according to the dictionary it means something that is no longer changeable or has become unchangeable... but that again is untrue... stones erode over the years, stones break, stones undergo metamorphosis and change into something absolutely different from what they were.. so when stones themselves are not permanent how can that words on them become unchangeable??

To some extent i believe actions can be permanent but then again these days actions can also be undone, everything actions committed comes with an undo button. the undo button may simply be a button like in Microsoft office or it maybe the money paid to people to keep their mouths shut.. but actions are also not permanent. so again i come back to the same question whom do you believe and how do you believe???

I know this may sound contradictory to what I've said till now but at times it isn't so much about the permanency of the actions or the words,  its the intent, the commitment offered... it is the way the person doing it feels and the way the person on the receiving end feels. its about the meaning hidden behind the actions and words because as they say nothing in this world is permanent except change itself...:)

So learn to be happy in the moment when the words are said and the actions taken and leave the rest to time..

GOOD NIGHT...!!