WISHLIST...!!! (Updated)

So... Its my b'day in a weeks time....And P asked me what i wanted... I said i donno know... surprise me.. and P being P couldn't think of anything to get me.. So she said make a wish list and i'll get you something from that... I told her that's not fair.. why should i have to work for my own gift... So she smartly replied... " KUCH PAANE KE LIYE KUCH KHONA BHI PADHTA HAI" ( u got to lose some to win some)

So I sat down to think... and came up blank.. so P said just write whatever you want... silly smart expensive.. doesn't matter... so here it is P... u better make good use of it... :P

1. LAPTOP ( vaio or mac.. i won't accept other brands)

Updated on 20-12-2011: I got my new vaio.... :P :)

2. CAR (with a driver please... second hand bhi chalegi.. :P)
Updated on 24-12-2011: I got a second hand car.. driver... ummm .... dat'l hafta be me... :P..


3. SHOES ( branded are best.. but street stuff will also do as long it is gifted in bulk)

4. SET OF RAMEKINS (please use google if you don't know what that is.. :P)

5. CAKE STAND

6. KITCHENAID STAND MIXER

7. A SMALL CAMERA.. ( so i can take better pics of my cakes..)

8. A PURSE (expensive and biggg)

9. PLATES ( nice ones for my cakes ..and cookies...)

Updated on 27-12-2011 : P & A.D got a beautiful cane dish.. :)

10. DIGITAL KITCHEN SCALE

11. SOOKIE STACKHOUSE SERIES (all books till date .. please)

12. CLOTHES... ( i'm a girl.. i always want more)

13. BIGGER CLOSET SPACE..(:P)

14. EXTERNAL HARDDISK

15. BAKING PANS

Updated on 27-12-2011: P. & A.D got a heart shaped pan... :P :P

16. SILICONE SPATULAS

17. COOKIE SHEETS

18. A BIG ROLLING PIN

19. A FUN BIRTHDAY

Updated on 26-12-2011: P & A.D thanq for the beautiful birthday..!!!

20. DOUGH SCRAPER

Updated on 24-12-2011: N got me a wilton dough scraper..:)

21. PASTRY BLENDER

22. A BIGGER KITCHEN 

23. PIPING BAGS, TIPS AND COUPLERS

24. COOKIE CUTTERS

25. LOTS OF STRAWBERRIES AND PHILADELPHIA CREAM CHEESE

Updated on27-12-2011: Got a me a pan full strawberries.. :P

26. A MAGIC POTION SO THAT I NEVER GAIN WEIGHT

27. QUESTION PAPER TO THIS YEAR'S EXAMS

28. A DAY AT THE SPA

29. A HUGE CUTTING BOARD

30. A LITTLE BIT OF ARTISTIC AND CREATIVE ABILITIES

31. A TRIP TO AUSTRALIA

32. DIGITAL COOKING THERMOMETER

33. OTHER ICING TOOLS

Updated on 27-12-2011: Got fondant icing tools from P &A.D...!!!

34. A HAPPENING NEW YEAR

35. GETTING RID OF MY BRACES

36. LOTS AND LOTS OF HAPPY SURPRISES ON MY B'DAY AND THE REST OF THE YEAR..

Updated on 27-12-2011: Loved the car surprise.. Thank you P & A.D..!!!

37. MORE SHOES.. ( hey i can never have enough)

38. HOLIDAY WITH FRIENDS

39. E-READER

40. UNLIMITED FUNDS FOR BOOKS, SHOES AND BAKING STUFF...

41. CAKE LEVELER

42. WORLD PEACE..   (:P :P.. sorry couldn't resist writing that ...:P)

Okay P thats about it for now....  have your go at it... :P

i know you can't do all 41.. but i would expect atleast 20 you know.... :P

IRAQ...

I spent the last week in Iraq on pilgrim... and i wanted to come back on the very next day after i reached there..
I went via Sharjah... all was well till we were at the Sharjah airport.. but the difference was obvious as soon as we went through the security check for the Najaf flight (Najaf is suppose to be one of the largest cities in the country)... it seemed like the air had turned hostile and just because i was dressed differently people were looking down upon me.. i felt like a witch in Salem ..:P.. and it just got worse when we reached Najaf...

At the airport.. it was a fish market.. worse then the mumbai local train stations... hardly anyone gave a straight answer.. and it seemed like the locals din't know English... or any other language expect for Arabic.. after an hour of waiting in the queue ( which had only 5 people in front of us) for the visa checking we proceeded to the taxi... got to our destination ... the place we were staying was a part of the religious community so that was like a respite from the hostility of the citizens... spent three days in Najaf .. somehow got through them would be more accurate

All over iraq they have security checking booths.. separate for men and women... (thank god for that)... the women's checking is as good as getting molested... i was squeezed in places where the sun doesn't shine.. and at the end of it i wanted to go take a bath and scrub myself clean.. by the end of my one week i was checked almost 10 to 15 times.. though by the 5th or the 6th time i kinda got use to that degradation...

Tried the Iraqi equivalent of a burger.. they called it hamburger even though it contained only lamb meat being halal n all.. and no i dint try to explain to them how hamburger was made of ham as in pork n blah n blah... had the famous pomegranate juice and ended up with a cold...

From there on we went to Karbala... checking was still the same.. sick and disgusting..... :( but there was one difference... people were even more hostile and rude here... oh i got thrown out of a shop (the man picked up the broomstick and showed me the door) .... :( anyway somehow got through the four days there.. and when i left that country i din't feel any regret... i like my self respect and dignity... thank you very much.. oh and after that i din't go shopping in that country either...

There were a few nice people.. who smiled and tried to make a conversation with me but they knew Arabic and i dint.. so that kinda dint work soo well.. all in all i am glad its over...

A few things i learnt from this trip.. the people of my "so- called" religious community are power hungry and arrogant... they are rude and lack manners.. they love interfering in other people's business...

Another thing i realized... i love my freedom.. and i cant live when i'm dependent on people.. oh and i definitely can't share a room with my relatives over a long period of time.. i need my space.. however small and cramped it maybe it.. at least its mine...

Well, that is about it for now.... Women.. if your going to Iraq purchase a black burqa and learn Arabic.. they hate outsiders... in a way i guess that's because of the war.. but hell its still not a tourist friendly country... and i love my country for its freedom all the way...

SO MUCH TO WRITE ABOUT...!!!

So much has happened in the past few months... and there is soo much to say but how to say it all.... don't think its possible for me to get into all of it... lemme go chronologically..

Firstly, the movie.. HP7 finale.. it dint live up to my expectations.. i hated the Hogwarts fight between Voldemort and Harry.. it was stupid and i just expected it to be epic like in the boook... :(

Now for the baking... yea been doing a lot of that... din't realize i would enjoy something that much.. the whole process gets tiring sometimes but the end result and the satisfaction when someone tastes your product and likes it.. its just out of this world.... the best part was people actually liked it enough to even pay to make some cake for them... as an amateur it feels like such a big deal.... the only thing i have been unable to make right are doughnuts... but soon... i'm not giving up till i get that right tooo... my latest was a black forest cake for my daddy's birthday cake.. it dint turn out perfect.. but welll it was yummy.. and i think it looked pretty good considering how many things went wrong... 

Yes the icing looks amateur... but hey i was really tired.. ..:P

Now that's not so bad is it... :P i heard it was pretty delicious too... :P

Okay enough about food... 

Now lets talk about friends... especially the ones who don't call because they weren't sure whether they were in a mood to talk.. now that just hurts big time.. but you know i don't really have much to say (even though a lot happened) because frankly... i'm over it... i don't expect much in return but simple friendship rules need to be obeyed... and the most important one of them is don't ever let your friend feel that they are not important... and never understand any circumstances tell them that directly.. that spells disaster... n well no disaster ends well... so yea.. i'm totally over it... i guess...

But on the good new front... N is getting married... hehe.. i did my happy dance when i got to know.. we  all knew it would happen soon.. but this fast was unexpected... :P the wedding is in January... and i get new clothes... hehe... i'm excited... :P... 

Other than that.. nothing much is going on as such.. My classes get over tomm.. i hafta start studying... lots of people have hopes on me.. and i don't want to let them down.. well frankly i'm not sure this is the thing for me... but its better than where i was before.. so i'm game.. :) till then i'm gonna enjoy my baking.. because i really am liking it more than i thought i would.. :P and funny thing is ... i'm not so bad at it...  :) 

So i've got no conclusion or anything today... just a plain old good bye... :)

P.S. i know my photography sucks..  unfortunately.. i cant seem to get better at it even if i try...

ANGER MANAGEMENT !!!...

LOUD MUSIC... and BAKING....

yes.. i realized today that baking while listening to loud music (not rock loud.. but music at loud volume) helps me get rid of my anger...

4 1/2 hours back...
I was walking home rather happy.. because i managed to deposit a DD in the bank (yea, lame i know.. but it was my first time) and i was going to go watch HP7 part2 tomorrow... everything was going good... but, of course, something had to go wrong...

WHAT WENT WRONG??

Bro dint get me my tickets... oh! smart- ass that he is watched it himself.. but couldn't get my tickets for the time i wanted... not that i really have a problem with any time.. all the problems come from my friends you see... every one is soo goddamn busy doing i don't know what...

Yea that's nothing to get angry about i know.. but i tend to get angry at random things.. and when i'm angry..... I'M ANGRY.... and maybe i wasn't angry, i was sad and dejected..

Anyway, my very very VALID reasons for getting angry...

FIRSTLY.. MY BROTHER... I was asking him for 3 hours if he got the tickets.. and he wasn't replying...
Reason: he was busy watching his movie without bothering to tell me that he DID NOT get my tickets...
and when does he tell me that he is gonna go try to get them again??
When i FINALLY get out of class and call him all on my own.... see that's just not done... and then he asks me if he should get me tomorrow evening tickets if they are available.. that's PISSING OFF!!!! and that exactly what i told him to do...

SECONDLY: A.D & P... man they have soo many conditions.. i'm just irritated... P doesn't want to go tonight... and A.D has a time limit till tomorrow afternoon after which she has to go to GB... i mean seriously..
can't they all just stop with all the conditions.. anyway, can't do nothing about it...so **calming myself down*

So i reached home, irritated and pissed at the world in general.. because basically no one wanted to make time for me or do things for me that was convenient for me for once...

And come to think of it... i was the only one who even wanted to go watch it i guess... because P wasn't bothered whether i get the tickets or not... oh! she was suppose to get them.. which at first she could not because of a valid reason... but after that she din't mention a thing until i myself started working on getting them...  oh even now no one cares..

And A.D, oh she was more bothered about watching Zindagi Na Milegi Dobaara... she did ask about the tickets.. but only so she knew when she would be free for other plans... no other reason...

So, i decided.. i wasn't going to bother with any one either.. and just sit at home all weekend and complete my pending work...

BUT,
i instead, remembered chocolate cupcakes and decided to just bake and give myself some good food for the weekend if not anything else....

After 4 hrs of baking and listening and singing on the top of my voice.....
I feel soo much better.. oh!! i'm still feeling bad but i actually, managed to not shout at my brother or any one else for that matter...even called A.D & P and apologized for being rude.... all first times for me... i even smiled at my bro.. though i'm still f*****g angry with every one... i can control it...

Should try it more often!!!... who knew BAKING was my fix to feeling calm....

OH!! and funny thing.. angry makes me a better baker.. the cupcakes today have turned out much tastier compared to all my previous times...

IN BETWEEN...!!!!

So I'm back i guess...

Where was I???  Lets just say i had lost myself in the IT crowd and din't have any time for myself or people in my life.

How has that changed?? I QUIT...!!! Yea i know its sudden and probably unexpected and stupid at my career level. but see this would be of importance if i was gonna bother with the IT industry again. As I dont plan to go back i doubt my decision is going to effect my life.

NOW the big question everyone keeps asking me. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO NEXT????

I don't really know.

See the problem is people don just take that for an answer and let it go.

The questions keep coming even after this.

Do u have another job??  NO I have no other job and i'm not looking.

You know what i would like. I would like people to leave me alone and just accept my decision. its my life and i dont wanna do anything with it right now.

See frankly speaking, i know i what i want next and right now i'm in between two places in my life. so till i don reach the next place i want to do nothing. and doing nothing is really kinda fun people. i've been doing it for a week now and i'm enjoying it.

Like right now, i'm just sitting in my balcony and typing away and pretty much enjoying this.

Just because i'm sitting at home while your working and i say i don't know what i'm gonna do next doesn't mean i don't know what i want from life. :)

 I know exactly where i see myself 10 years from now and i will be in that place and i will b happy...

P.S. i know you guys love and thats why you care about where i'm going. But trust me i know where i'm going...:) and right now i'm in my happy place.. :)