yes.. i realized today that baking while listening to loud music (not rock loud.. but music at loud volume) helps me get rid of my anger...
4 1/2 hours back...
I was walking home rather happy.. because i managed to deposit a DD in the bank (yea, lame i know.. but it was my first time) and i was going to go watch HP7 part2 tomorrow... everything was going good... but, of course, something had to go wrong...
WHAT WENT WRONG??
Bro dint get me my tickets... oh! smart- ass that he is watched it himself.. but couldn't get my tickets for the time i wanted... not that i really have a problem with any time.. all the problems come from my friends you see... every one is soo goddamn busy doing i don't know what...
Yea that's nothing to get angry about i know.. but i tend to get angry at random things.. and when i'm angry..... I'M ANGRY.... and maybe i wasn't angry, i was sad and dejected..
Anyway, my very very VALID reasons for getting angry...
FIRSTLY.. MY BROTHER... I was asking him for 3 hours if he got the tickets.. and he wasn't replying...
Reason: he was busy watching his movie without bothering to tell me that he DID NOT get my tickets...
and when does he tell me that he is gonna go try to get them again??
When i FINALLY get out of class and call him all on my own.... see that's just not done... and then he asks me if he should get me tomorrow evening tickets if they are available.. that's PISSING OFF!!!! and that exactly what i told him to do...
SECONDLY: A.D & P... man they have soo many conditions.. i'm just irritated... P doesn't want to go tonight... and A.D has a time limit till tomorrow afternoon after which she has to go to GB... i mean seriously..
can't they all just stop with all the conditions.. anyway, can't do nothing about it...so **calming myself down*
So i reached home, irritated and pissed at the world in general.. because basically no one wanted to make time for me or do things for me that was convenient for me for once...
And come to think of it... i was the only one who even wanted to go watch it i guess... because P wasn't bothered whether i get the tickets or not... oh! she was suppose to get them.. which at first she could not because of a valid reason... but after that she din't mention a thing until i myself started working on getting them... oh even now no one cares..
And A.D, oh she was more bothered about watching Zindagi Na Milegi Dobaara... she did ask about the tickets.. but only so she knew when she would be free for other plans... no other reason...
So, i decided.. i wasn't going to bother with any one either.. and just sit at home all weekend and complete my pending work...
BUT,
i instead, remembered chocolate cupcakes and decided to just bake and give myself some good food for the weekend if not anything else....
After 4 hrs of baking and listening and singing on the top of my voice.....
I feel soo much better.. oh!! i'm still feeling bad but i actually, managed to not shout at my brother or any one else for that matter...even called A.D & P and apologized for being rude.... all first times for me... i even smiled at my bro.. though i'm still f*****g angry with every one... i can control it...
Should try it more often!!!... who knew BAKING was my fix to feeling calm....
OH!! and funny thing.. angry makes me a better baker.. the cupcakes today have turned out much tastier compared to all my previous times...
