BLANK....Yep.... my mind is absolutely blank.... well its absolutely blank atleast when is comes to what i should write about right now but otherwise i think there's a stampede going on in there( hence the headache, atleast thats half the reason, the other half being the fact that i'm down with fever and cough and cold... :(..yeahh i know what a bliss, ain't it???....)......
You know how it is when you're soo sure about something and then something else happens that shakes your world and all your beliefs and then your mind starts thinking about all that you believed in all this while and you start questioning yourself and your decisions and you confuse yourself soo much that you want to stop thinking about everything but by then your brain has gone into an auto pilot mode and you just can't seem to find the switch that will shift it back to the manual mode.
Well my mind is in that exact same zone right about now, but if you come and ask me what my whole confusion is about, i don't think i would have a valid answer. see, like right now i just din't know what to do so i opened this blogging window and decided to write whatever came to my head and at first nothing..... thats why the blank... but the truth is our mind or brain or whatever that thing up there is that makes us sensible (well, not every human is sensible , is he??) i'm going to rephrase myself here. that thing up there that biologically classifies us as homo sapiens is never blank, atleast not untill you die, i think ( i really don't know the whole after life thingy and i don't think i'm a believer of it, so the brain stops after death for me). yes, so as i was saying that thing up there, lets call it the thinker ( brain is the scientific term and mind is the psychological term , so i want my own term). the thinker starts working and thinking from the time of its conception in the fetus( hope i'm right) well scientific, a fetus inside the womb does show brain cell activity so i say the thinker has started its work. and it works through out our life just like the heart. but you see heart doesn't make us go crazy and give us splitting headaches.. well it does give us heart aches but these heart aches are also there only because the thinker tells us that we have a heart ache. ( okay a little inspiration from inception...:P)
Anyway i was saying that the thinker is a poor overworked laborer. and you know god , you should have made a switch off mode for it too i mean it also needs a holiday right. just like mine needs one right now. remember stampede in the head.. thoughts are fiercely jumping on top of each other and running so fast that they are crushing each other and destroying themselves even before they are fully formed.
N suddenly the rushing thoughts are moving soo fast that i can't even catch one of them and it seems like its a silent world again. though obviously that's just my wishful thinking because the stampede is still on and it just gives the impression of blankness because i can't read or clearly pin point on any thought.
And that has led me to a weird realization...
When we say that i'm peaceful or i'm calm or that i'm not thinking anything the truth my dear friends is that our good old thinker is working at such a fast pace that its all zooming past us and that we assume to be a blank and thoughtless phase. Which in reality it is not.
And i will conclude ( Because A.D says that i always have a conclusion to my posts) by saying that if you've actually made any sense out of this particular entry then your thinker is working at a normal pace and your insane. (because the post doesn't make sense to me)...
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ADIOS..!!!!
hahaha... i likes the conclusion miss ! :P
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