ONE MONTH.....

One Month Ago....

It was my first day at the JOB... Big day.... woke up early got dressed in my best clothes picked up my bag and N picked me up from home... oh no... N wasn't joining with me.. S, D and N were coming to drop me all the way till the induction venue... yeah...!!! i know how sweet of them... :) :)  SO i reached the venue... 5 star hotel and all... it was like woweee.... but my thoughts, as i entered the main door of the hotel while they sat in the car and waved goodbye to me, were not woweee... they were more on the lines of nervousness and some sorrow and regret.... nerves are understandable... but why the sorrow and regret, right??? its really simple actually.... i was sad to leave people behind me .. the people who sat in the car were not people i wanted to leave behind.... :( and regret because i knew that i could have been with them if i chose it... oh and there was some hope... hope that i still had my other options open that i if this company was not good enough i could go to the other..( though i knew deep down that i wouldn't change my mind anymore... i had a very big incentive by going to ACC..)

Anyway, that was how the day started... and i would like to say that it got better but the truth is it just got worse.. i managed to get through the day. but what i was really looking forward was to get out of the induction program and go meet friends... oh there was one good thing about this program... it had great  great great food..( and trust me that was another thing that got me  through the day... the good food.. :P )...

The next 2 days went on with the induction and truly speaking it just got more and more boring... :P.. i mean all that was happening was people going on about the core values and ethics and  then i zoned out.... :P .. but I'm sure it was more of the same... i reached the heights of boredom in those 2 days...

Present Day....

I woke up late... took a quick shower.. its a Friday so i put on jeans (yayayay)... and the top that came into my hand first and waited for the bus... there was no place in the bus.. so i sat behind the driver's seat ( see the contrast to me sitting in a luxurious car on the 1st day to this..)  and now its lunch break and if i want to eat i will get a south Indian thaali which i detest or a puff or the best is the maggi..( not that I'm eating... ).... and today evening i don't have anyone to go meet.. oh wait there is my bed waiting for me at home.. but that's about it...

I've been in this place for a month now.. and a lot has changed... I've gotten use to being alone and doing things alone.... i almost went and had the iftar treat at pizza hut alone... so that has definitely changed( that's something i wouldn't even have considered a month back... going to a restaurant and eating alone... no f*****g way...) but now it all goes....

Now , even after 1 month i don't like this place any better... but i like the fact that i have a house to go back to at the end of the day because fact is if i would have gone to INFY and not liked it and not even have a home to go to at the end of the day i guess i wouldn't have been able to handle it so well...

I liked my life 1 month back.. i was living it to the fullest.. and now I'm just going along with it.. because life has to go on...:)

Enough crap for now....

Adios...

MOVING ON....

They say when you leave college you leave your life ( as you know it) behind you and move on to a new life. a life which has a different meaning and different priorities. but do we really??

When you leave school behind you leave your childhood behind... you leave your careless days behind because now it time to think seriously about your career.. its time to use your brain for its most important purpose... think.... its time you decide your future... you leave the uniforms, the classrooms, the teachers and everything behind.... but i din't.... i loved my school... i savored my memories.. i saved my school uniform... i saved my identity card ( now its tattered and torn), i still have my officer bearer badges and my blazer. will i ever let go off them??? some people might laugh and say i'm hung up but i don't think so.. i love those memories.. and they are things that i will never let go off because i love them...

I'm not a crazy person who just keeps junk from years back... i don't have a single memory from my junior college days. not an identity card... nothing... y??? because i hated the place.. it meant nothing to me... it was just something that i had to do...to be able to move ahead in life.. so i did it.. but i don't have any souvenir of that time...

Now people tell me that since college is over i need to move on... life isn't the same any more... i can't hang on to things..

I agree life isn't the same.. but that doesn't mean i have to lose things that i value in life..  does it?? i miss my life.. i miss college.. but that doesn't mean i'm cribbing.. i know that its time for me to be responsible and grow up and all of that.. but y does it mean that i have to leave things behind.. i want to hang on to the things i love.. i probably will hang on to somethings forever no matter what people tell me..

When im still hanging on to something as insignificant as a school id card, how can i even thing about moving on and leaving behind things that have probably changed me soo much that they define the person i have become.. im i suppose to leave those things and move on and away from them when they are the things that have given my college years meaning???

How am i suppose to move on when the thing that i'm leaving behind is probably what helped me get where i'm today??? Why can't i go on with my new life and still retain the important things of the life i'm suppose to leave behind... ??

I dislike the concept on moving on... its like i'm throwing something out of my life just because i dont have place for it in life... it doesnt matter that its still the most precious thing for me.. its inconsiderate and rude...

I wouldn't even throw an old jeans out if i love them.. after all they were there for me when i needed to get ready in a rush and leave from home.. okay now i'm jus blabbering... but i guess what i'm trying to say is... i cant move on.. and i dont want to move on.. and that jeans will probably lie in my closet till i grow old and die just because i love it.. and every now and then i'd look at it and remember all my happy memories with it.. and  who knows i might get around to even wearing it again someday..

So for all the people who have moved on.. and who want me to move on... all i'm saying is.. i'm sad you can forget whats important and just give into the need to let go because thats whats easy or acceptable.. but i aint doing it... no sir.. im keeping me just the same... for as long as i want to...

LONG TIME .. NO SEE...!!!

Its been too long since i wrote anything that made sense to me so here i'm siting infront of the lappy thinking what to write now.

You know there is a time when to soo many things are happening in your life but when to sit down to write something nothing really comes. well thats what i've been going through...

I have soo many things happening in life as of now.  new job, friends leaving, etc etc... but every time i thought to write about it i would say to myself there really isn't much to write about this particular incident.. there is nothingi learnt from it. or there is nothing very important about to actually write.

But now i've decided that i'm going to write about it all. like who cares if its not that important, its a part of my life, it happened to me so its important to me... :P

Let me start with the job. so my life is taking a new turn I've started working. its been 2 weeks since i joined and to tell you the truth i realized why people say that college life or student life is the best. as long as your a student you have the right to make mistakes and learn from them. to can do anything your time is your own and you don't have to give any one any explanation about it. bunk classes all you want till you can. and the best part of all you don't have anything to do.. LEAVE...

Once your working you can't leave until its logout time ( which sucks bigtime..!!!). like yesterday. our trainer missed the flight... our fault??? NO... they don't have a back up trainer...our fault?? NO AGAIN.. so we should be allowed to leave fr the day right?? NOOOO.. we are made to sit in a room from 9 am till 6 pm all the while waiting for some one to come and teach us something. ( there were breaks in the middle but thats not the point) oh! a guy does come at 3 pm to teach us networking and all he does is reads the slides and goes away.. arrrgggghhhh...

Another thing i learnt is everything they tell you about the company before joining is just to lure you in. the really story comes out only after you join. not that i'm having a really bad time here.. the company is good. people are good.. but... well i guess i just need to grow up... hmph...

Anyway enough about the boring part of the life. let me add something about the interesting parts.. the weekends... :D.. they are the most import parts.. hehe...

I started mine today with a movie... watched AISHA.. its a chick flick.. so guys stay away your bound to get bored... and if your a guy and you liked it .. hmmm...are you sure your straight??? : P...anyway.. its watchable once... oh any boys you can definitely go watch it for the girls in short clothes... hehe...

After the movie N and i visited the nail bar... hehe... got some nail art done... hehehe.. was great fun.. :P

FRIENDSHIP'S DAY..!!!

1st August 2010, Friendship's Day...

I remember celebrating friendship's day during school. the best part was for a long time i dint know it came on a Sunday. i obvious reason being Sunday was always a holiday and the band tying always took place on the day after which was a Monday. so for years i was always under the impression that Friendship's day came on a Monday and i never even realized that it never came on the same date every year.

When i was a kid friendship's day was all about tying bands and flaunting your numbers.it was all about the quantity...

"I got 10  friendship's bands.."

"Thats all, I got 50... and all of them handmade.."

I remember going to the market with my granny and buy special wool and threads for the bands and spending days before the D -Day making dozens of bands. mine would all be similar. since i never had a special friend in the beginning.

Then in 6th grade A.D came along and her band would be different from the rest and some where down the line i got bored of making bands( or rather i grew up ) so i stopped the wholesale band making and just started buying a few bands for friends( not the whole class anymore)...

Then school was out and we went to Jr. colleges... thats the time i finally figured out that friendship's day  was celebrated on the 1st Sunday of August every year. funny how i never paid attention to it before.

Since that time , thats year 2004 i've been celebrating this day ( by hanging out) with my best friends A.D and P...... We use to meet every year and hang out and just have a girls day in is nothing else.

This year however, i'm siting at home and P is out with her College buddies for lunch and A.D is in mysore ( tomm's her joining date for Infosys).

The day doesn't really hold any meaning anymore because the people i call friends aren't around to enjoy the day with me. I love them all but without them enjoying feels weird. P and i are suppose to hang out today but i have a feeling that ain't happening. the essence of the day is lost to me...:(

Its a sad friendship's day for me. August, 1st, 2010 marks the day when we all embarked on our seperate journeys away from eachother..

All the best to A.D, S and D... have a blast.. will miss u guys...:)