Sometimes one wonders if they have a right to feel a certain way about something when it was their choice that sort of led to the something happening that is making one feel this way... I know that sounds a little confusing but this week, actually the past two days have kind of left me feeling things that i should not be feeling and not in a good way. The feelings are mostly negative and condemning others for things that aren't entirely their fault.
Yesterday, I, for some unknown reason, went trapezing through my past and it made me angry towards people who are long gone from my life for things that wasn't entirely their fault. i blamed them for our falling apart, and i'm not sure if that's entirely right.
Today, I felt hurt about something that i had willingly stepped out of. I just felt like i was being cheated out of something, because it was partly my idea. Just because I'm not a part of something anymore does that mean that it becomes solely someone else's?? The ideas and hard work that was mine is not of consequence now?? I have recently stepped away, and the time i was away isn't even close to quarter of the time i spent working for it. If i year later i was brushed away as being not a part then i would understand it because that is a consequential amount of time.. but already? makes me feel like that was the plan all along. and everyone was just waiting for me to move away. See all these negative feelings... not sure if they are right or i'm just over thinking..
ANyway so that's about feeling what i shouldn't be feeling.. don't know if i make any sense.
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